really. it's enough of me complaining about my working environment, whining and stuff. though I still insist of leaving.

Sometimes, life is so much better when I start to open up my heart, slow down and just listening and watch what is going on. Fucked Up chef - what can I say, no matter where I go, I'm sure there'll be at least one such person. Gossips and humilation - it's other's mouth what can I do.

I guess, I am trying to adapt to my new environment and I am adapting well so far. Life is easier. Service staffs are really nice and beautiful people, though there's still a limit to how close we can get. I've got cool chef though they always hang a straight face, still they are nice people. I guess it's good this way -when they blow up, I'll think it's normal; however when they smile or create a joke, it'll be a really cheeky and peaceful day. Working days is still as tired as ever - it's really tiring, both mentally and physically drained. Studying is never physically drained though we always complained that we're sleepy and shits.

2 more days to my LAST "2 off days" (i'm only entitled to 1 day off per week, that's how pathetic); and soon 1 more week to the last week of the month - 1 month down, 5 more months to go.

Learning stuffs or not doesn't really bothers me anymore. I should be just grateful to have a place to intern at, and experience how working life and real kitchen works and stuff. But I'll appreciate of I could clear all my "to-do-list" in my logbook given by SHATEC. Like seriously. Anyway, it's none of my business if I didn't clear my list.

Anyway last but not the list - Lord! Please bless me with more days like today, hopefully throughout the rest of the days in my hotel.

Looking forward to what my chef will feedback about me in my logbook. All mistakes and weaknesses are my learning point.