time check - 12.19a.m.


I am waiting for someone currently. Meanwhile trying to fill this little space of mine. Something struck my family today. It isn't a good thing at all, but somewhat good to someone, which bring an end to his suffering in this world - my Grandfather.


For your information. he was admitted to hospital since last Sunday and discharge yesterday. He was found having a Kidney failure and eventually his organs are failing. In short - no cure. It's really painful to see such a great man like him to suffer so much. He is in pain. Pain - the pain in him, had brought tears to us. It's disheartening to see him suffering so much. Because, he SMOKED. Now, he is at home, resting, Which is also known as waiting to die (in a mean way). He is tired. We all seen it. He almost gave up. He did. He look tired. BUT, he remain strong. Waiting for everyone - his family member. Nothing happen to him after that. But, fear arose, everyone stay by his side. 2 guys guarding him now, downstairs.


My grandfather - a man of righteousness, kind, caring and father-like. I love him. Unfortunately, I do not know how to show him my love * something bad, i thought*. I told myself, I will not cry. Everyone will eventually goes to God's place. But, there is a sense of unwillingness. Unwilling to let him leave us. Unwilling to live without him. I cried. I cried at last. My eyes got red. But, I thought to myself. He would have gone to God's place and leave in peace.! With Love. I would want him to go sooner. *i sound bad* . Not because I dislike him. But I thought it would end his pain and suffering. Right? May God Bless him.


Alright change topic. 20 mins had gone and he had not call me! Ahem. Should I wait? Hmm ...


i am getting restless and tired recently. May all the bad luck pass us and came to the end. May LadyLuck shown upon us! God Bless Us!


Got to go. Sleeping time. Shall not ruin my Beauty and Radiance to the NIGHT!


With Love.
Brendy

p/s: I am okay ... Be strong.