I have been reflecting on my way back: Have I been over-estimating myself, and have been so proud of myself ?



It had been 10 years since I had study already. Yet i does not seems to have any improvement in my WRITTEN ENGLISH and other subject. I seems to have been slacken. Have I? Even Yizhen, who used to be weaker than me, is pulling her socks up now. There are improvement seen in her composition, whereas me, still the same old SERIOUS EXPRESSION problem. Am I fated to be a potential F9 students, just like what Mdm Lim had predicted? I am afraid! Is it because I had bake and cook too much that I neglected my study?



Maybe 'clever' is indeed a very important essential in life. Whats for the passion? So what about the passion I thought. Is;t it extra. If I get to choose, I would rather me clever than processing this passion for culinary in me! I mean, I don't deserve it. Isn't it? I think it is a waste of talent in me! I am not clever t0 use it, I have no ability to use it. Comparing me? Whats my cooking comparing to the Hawker centre? Whats my presentation comparing to the others? Its all RUBBISH! Maybe I should get into a car accident, lost my conscious and choose to wake up being cleverer and more innocent. Shall I! I think thats the best ways out.

Let alone being a clever person. What about self-discipline? Do I have it? No! I am totally opposite from my classmates. I am stupid yet not working hard. Taking classic example like Jiamin! Look. She is such a hardworking girl, thus having a good result! What about me ? Rubbish! Thats the only words I can use to describe myself! I think I am wasting spaces in the World!



What has been up to me? I am such as Failure. I fail to fulfill my wishes, I fail to open my ears to HEAR! I doubt the class like me! Even my friends. Let alone my loves 1. I felt like a burden to all teachers, especially Mdm Lim. thinking that she is an old lady, yet she got to scold me everytime. I mean, i really pity her.

brendaniel. Love is UNDESCIBEABLE